In the interest of complete honesty and accountability…
(Eeek!)
I failed a test. Not only did a fail a test, but I did it in spectacular fashion, and it was on the one subject I pride myself on.
Cardiac.
I’m cringing as I type that.
To those people who have given so freely from their pockets so that some poor chick from Ohio could go to achieve a dream… And to those people who have listened to me freak out either through email, or IM’s or on the phone…
Jesus, I let ya down.
Know this. It wont happen again.
Life happened and I slacked off. That fact in combination with an instructor who knows how to put a test together spelled disaster for me. I knew it was coming. And I’m unbelievably embarrassed by that.
The retest is on Thursday and I have been and will be studying until I sit down and start circling letters.
And you will never see another post like this again.
Epi,
I understand how you’re feeling. I failed a test in RT school once, as well.
At the same time, don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re doing awesome!
Good luck on your retest!
Hang in there!
I’ve been slacking too. I’m waiting for something to slap me into action, because my self-discipline is quite… friable.
Being in school and work and school for ages can wear a person out. It’s hard to give 100% every day, because at some point the tanks run dry. Taking care of yourself and enjoying life is just as important as your career.
Practically speaking, maybe it’s better that the test exists to check your readiness; so, once you crack it, you’ll be confident to treat the real live patients in the field.
Maybe this is the kick in the pants you need? I’m sure you’ll recover quickly. I hope I can learn vicariously through you and pull up my socks, or I’ll be having my own *gulp* honesty post soon too.
Come on…admit it…you’re human! Anyone who tries to keep too many balls in the air is going to drop one now and then. Personally, failing a test in dramatic fashion has served as a vivid and VERY effective reminder to study extra hard for future exams, and it all balances out. You’re doing great. Wishing you good luck and positive thinking!
Epi,
(hugs) Don’t beat yourself up about one test. Real life gets in the way of school sometimes. You haven’t failed, its not all lost. Thankfully, they allow you a retest. Study for it, yes, but ease off on yourself. Things happen, life goes on. Nobody is going to yank you from school for being human. And when the test is over, take some time for YOU! Sometimes slacking off in studying is a symptom that you need to take more time for you.
You’ll pass the test and do great!
Cheering for you,
Medic/Nurse
I’m in the beginning stages of a challenge EMT recert, after a year-and-a-half lapse. This is the first time I’ve done a challenge since 1996 – all my recerts since then have been CME-based (which is WAY easier!), and I’m scared witless.
I made a lousy showing on the challenge written test (which is HIGHLY unusual for me), and completely botched two practical stations. So I have to go to eight class sessions, plus retake the two stations in June, when the class concludes.
I feel your pain. Keep plugging along. :)
Ahh, wakeup calls are a wonderful thing.
Remind me to tell you sometime about taking my FAA Flight Instructor’s exam…
(I passed, but literally by the skin of my teeth!)
Epi – you’ve been a bad girl and should go to your room and not come out again until you can recite cardiac in your sleep. There, now I want you to know that hurt me more than it hurt you.
Epi,
as we’ve both commiserated with each other when that test comes up and bites us both big time- sometimes crap happens and we get slapped in the face- you are going to be fine and so I am! despite it all! I am thankful you get to retest- our instructors don’t believe in it! which is a double edged sword- one that yes, I deserve what I get the first time but two, is please let me try to fix it!
Ahem.
It’s not like you don’t have a friend who is a fair hand at cardiology who has repeatedly offered to help, Miss Proud Ass…
Listen here, Blog Daddy.
Mmmm…. Crap I hate it when you’re right.
Just from the bit we’ve worked together I know that you know your stuff.
What you’re still shaky on I can help with. Just pick up the phone.
And once you knock that test down, I’d love to read about our run from your point of view.
Suckage. Hang in there, you’ll do fine on the retest. I’ve always found that I remember those questions I got wrong more vividly than the ones I got right.
Chin up, student-sister…You’ll be fine!
You’re human Epi- we ALL need wakeup calls occasionally… Better now, than just before the final… Now get back in there and beat them :-)
Didya happen to read any of the blog posts I put up during last semester? I had some serious mis-adventures during A&P I that caused problems for me….
Things happen, Epi. And I got through the semester in a fashion I was happy with. You will get through this. It will be okay.
Trust me on that, as well as everyone else who responded here.
:)