I know I’m supposed to be taking a break from the blogging thing…
And I am. Seriously.
Okay, cut a girl some slack. It’s a Sunday night. The Super Bowl is on for crying out loud. I know I’m not the only student out there who put their big red book down in order to watch some football! (Or to write a quick post while watching some football… GO SAINTS, btw.)
Friday was a big day. Friday was the day our class (as well as half the company who happens to own my school), tested out for ACLS. Not such a big deal for them, hell, they’ve been there before. Some of them several times.
For us, for the students, it was a biggish thing. It was a milestone.
The class started with a handout.
It continued with me several times forgetting the importance of ventilation. At one point I was ordered to “exhale” by a classmate because I was “paler than usual”. My hands shook, my stomach hurt, and basically, I was a train wreck.
I stumbled through my practice run. I didn’t make any critical mistakes, but I did have issues with the print button on the LP resulting in a few two foot long strips. I was a little slow on one of the rhythms that I would have known without thinking about it any other day.
I feel like I’m right where I was the last time I did this, minus the dislocated and fractured bones.
I headed out for lunch on my own, just needing some time to clear my head and give myself a little pep talk. I thought back to a classmate who just three days before had slid a note in front of me that said “YOU GOT THIS!”
And all of a sudden, I realized that I did.
I got this.
The switch was flipped.
No shaky hands, no forgetting to breathe. (I was still a little pale though.)
My point is, I was focused, I wasn’t nervous, and *this girl* emerged with a card. (And for my old school Medics out there, I realize what ACLS has turned into, but at this point I have to take every step forward as a victory. I reject your reality and substitute my own!)
For those of you who coached me, or studied with me, or maybe a little bit of both, Thank you.
One more step forward.