Let me start this by saying that I realize my posts have been few and far between.
For that I’m truly sorry…
Being a baby medic is a very scary thing for me. I take my job seriously… Becoming a medic has brought on a whole new level of responsibility, and I don’t take it lightly. And I shouldn’t… I know that. I’m dealing with it the only way that I know how.
UGH…. I’m struggling to find the words to describe what I’m feeling right now.
Hrm. Let me put it this way. This is for anyone who is reading this is who currently a medic student. When folks tell you that the only thing scarier than being a student is being set loose to practice on your own… Yeah, they’re right. I have a whole series of posts I could (and have started) writing about this. That’s for another day.
This is about tomorrow. Saturday.
Tomorrow I’m starting at a service that I’ve been trying to get hired into for years… I’m terrified. I have a case of nerves unlike anything I’ve ever dealt with before.
I just keep thinking… Please don’t let me mess this up. Please help me keep my head in the game. Please keep my hands steady. Please let me remember everything that I’ve learned. Please let me do no harm.
Please just let me do some good.