Ready or Not….
I am done.
Done ya’ll.
Done feeling sorry for myself. Done downplaying what I’ve accomplished. Done apologizing for things that I don’t need to apologize for. I’m done feeling like I’m simply not good enough. I’m done waiting. I’m done waiting for things to go my way, and done beating the hell out of myself when they don’t.
That’s life after all.
I’m not a victim and I’m not broken. This woe-is-me bull shit is over.
I am a Mom to two of the most beautiful, gracious, compassionate children in the world, and they are truly what is vital to me, they are quite literally the air that I need to breathe. I feel like I’ve won the lottery every day that I get a hug from one of them, every day that I get to tuck them in to bed, every day that I get to argue with them that really “last time you tried chicken you LOVED it!”.
I’m lucky enough to be able to say that I LOVE my job, there aren’t many people who can say that. True, I might not work for the best service in the country. Or in the state. Or even in the city, but I can change that. I can be the change that my employer needs. And I’m working on that now.
I’m fortunate enough to be a part of an amazing group of people learning from a fantastic instructor. We’re all in this for the right reasons, and I can’t wait to see what we can accomplish once we’ve gotten our medic cards.
I am, in fact, surrounded by truly good people. People who I would trust with not only my life but the life of my kids. Some of you might be just a few streets over, some of you are a few states over. There are two of you who don’t even reside in the US. Distance doesn’t really matter after all.
I am a very lucky girl. It might have taken me a good bit to actually realize it, but I know it as fact now.
So I’m done being a Debbie Downer. I’m done being “Dark and Twisty”.
The real me is back. And she’s practically bionic.
Ready or not, ya’ll, here I come.
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About time!
Do IT Epi! And welcome back
Epi,
I almost don’t know what to say for a change (big shock, I know, lol).
Just…so incredibly glad that you’re finally able to see the good things you have going for you.
I’ll miss “Dark and Twisty,” from time-to-time, but I’m glad blessings and light Epi is back.
Glad that things are looking up!
It is all too easy to dwell on things when they don’t go right, so brilliant that you are able to focus on the positive
Glad to hear!!
Someone once told me that when you’re feeling sad, allow yourself 10 mins to cry. 10 minutes to let it all out and release your emotions. I tried it once – about 87 seconds in I felt SO silly for allowing myself to cry over something so petty that I stopped, pulled myself together and moved on.
You should try it sometime, it worked for me
Allowed me to be in control of my emotions for that brief second.
Now if we can clone you, we’ll be all set.
Welcome back Epi.
Woo Hoo! Glad to hear it!
Had to tell myself pretty much the same things before I ever made any progress back when. Good to have you back with us.
’bout damn time. You go gurl. Take what is yours – you’ve earned it.